Space to speak

I started this.

All because I went through an old email, found old emails from him and read through all the shit we has documented through a series of chats and emails.

They were not pretty. Our relationship was volatile, dark and negative.
How had I put up with it? – I wondered while reading everything.

Then I dug out his blog and went through it too. And then hers.
Both struck me as similarly as blogs of bitter exes who lost someone (me and my partner) and were stuck in echoes of pain with no closure.

It made me want to have a space to speak such things too, though without declaring who I really am.
Not that I'm in any pain at the moment.

It's just an outlet for frustration that I cannot speak on my own channels – for fear of insulting people around me.

Black (or BLVCK) seems to be an appropriate name, for me to expose my dark thoughts without being judged.

We'll see how this goes.